As the second anniversary of comedian Joan Rivers‘ passing approaches, the only daughter of the late Fashion Police host opens up about her second Mother’s Day alone.

According to ABC News, Melissa Rivers recently revealed in a blog post titled, “My Therapist Told Me to Journal,” that Mother’s Day is a “nerve-wracking holiday”and spoke on her therapist’s tips for getting through Sunday.

“This will be the second Mother’s Day since she died,” Rivers wrote. “And while the loss has been profound, I’ve filled the giant space in my life she occupied with other things, like grief, anger, fear, and Xanax. And work.”

Rivers explains her coping mechanisms by keeping herself busy with several projects, while failing to tend to herself and mend her heart of the massive loss she’s dealt with.

“I’ve been busy, busy, busy, throwing myself into lots of projects: Fashion Police, writing books, and developing TV shows,” she continued. “The only thing I haven’t been working on is myself.”

To deal with her grief, she reveals her friends and family suggested therapy, who then said to try journaling. Although initially hesitant, ABC News explains, it was her mother’s life that inspired her to begin the process. Joan Rivers also kept a journal, which formed the basis of her 2014 memoir, “Diary of a Mad Diva.”

With Mother’s Day right around the corner, Rivers spoke about the one thing she’d like from her 15-year-old son, Cooper.

“All I want for Mother’s Day is 24 straight hours without him scowling, rolling his eyes or making dismissive sucking sounds at me with his tongue,” she said. “We’ll see what happens.”